Sometimes you are moving through the fog and you can't see anything clearly. But, then suddenly the fog clears up and you see the most beautiful thing in your entire life. You want to live this moment forever but its short and you know it. You want to capture it, but this most beautiful thing disappears, forever. All your left with is memories and regret.
These memories and regrets are the most valuable things left with you and they help you turn from coal to diamond. So has been the case with me.
Not a single night passes by without her thoughts but I have learnt a lot along the way. Its amazing how the human brain evolves and you start learning more and more as time progresses and your experience grows. But, no matter how hard I try, she is gone- never to return. I know she reads my blog, sometimes, but I don't want her to feel bad about me. It was all my fault.
If you read my blog regularly, you would remember
my post about forgetting her and moving on. But, I guess some things are just so beautiful that you just can't forget them and move on. And this is what I have learnt recently. I have tried to keep myself busy in doing things that would take my attention away from her, but, alas, I keep failing.
I know she is happy and she should be. Atleast, thats what I want for her. She has every right to be happy and my prayers will always be for her well-being. And, I guess, I will be missing her and cherishing her memory, always. The beauty of here eyes and the glimpse of her face would always help me become a diamond.
As for me, I am at a difficult cross-section. My mother wants me to get married (or engaged, atleast) and I can't do that. That would not be fair. I can't turn down my mother and I can't break my promise (remember: If not the one, it should rather be none). No matter how hard I try to forget HER, I will fail and that would be not be fair to my wife-to-be. You don't do love, it just happens and it happened to me only once.
Courtesy of: Google Earth
